All is well

Hi readers a.k.a friends, I am back again. First thing to mention is I am not going to post new year resolution here. =/ I have been saying that I want to make a list of my new year resolutions until I find it a task for me instead of my own willingness to do that, so here I am to do a little bit sharing of my life which I really enjoy doing. :)

The 3 Idiots - Farhan, Rancho, Raju. A very fantastic movie with 3 very inspiring characters in it.

Kareena Kapoor, she is really gorgeous :)

If you were to ask me what rank I will give to this movie, with no doubt I will say 10/10, 100/100, 1000/1000! This is the best movie I have ever seen, (I am not exaggerating) although I seldom watch movie. :P It brings great messages to the audiences. There are too much to say about this movie, I simply want to say that, do the thing that you really passionate in, you live for yourself, not your father, nor your mother or any other people around you. Secondly, be optimistic :) ALL IS WELL is a dialog which has been used throughout the movie. This is very true, I used to tell myself, everything will turn alright, (this phrase is still on my white board since the day I decorated the whiteboard), no matter how hard, tough the circumstance is. :) Seriously, YOU must watch this movie, just like how I urged you guys to read 'The Secret'.

Okay, that's all about the 3 Idiots.

I have been spending the whole study week in the library. I really like the quiet, peaceful, serene environment in the Perpustakaan Sultan Zanariah and we UTMers call it as PSZ. :)

Sitting at the right place and when you study until saturated, what you need to do is just turn up your head and have a look at the scenery outside the window, and start day-dreaming. :)

Taken on 8th Jan 2012 from level 5 of PSZ :) The beautiful sunset. :)

This is taken today, same place, but different scenery, what a beautiful cloudy day.

 Conclusion is, I am going to spent the rest of the study week of every semester in the library. :) I really enjoy the surprises outside the window :)

Okay, that's all about the library.

Taken long time ago, during LLDS :)

 Friday afternoon, we, CM,  Rebecca and I had been invited Shakti's mum to have lunch together. Hmmmm, I don't really like mutton but thumb up for Shakti's mum home-cooked mutton! The way her mum cooked it was just so suit my appetite. Slurrppp! :D

Hmmmm, her mother was really friendly. Her family remembered me of the Western people where they show their love to their family members without hiding. They hug, kiss, and tell each other 'I love you' without feeling weird. This will never happen to a conservative Chinese family like mine.
The visit remembered me this dialog between my dad and I when I was 6 or 7 years old.

爸爸：“Kiss 爸爸。”
开始懂得害羞的我：“不要。”

Dad used to her children to kiss him and we used to kiss him after he asked for it. But no such memory for me after that conversation. :( I love you, papa and mama. How much courage do I need to bring it out from my mouth? I wonder.

Lastly, I have another photo to share,

I miss you, we miss you, A-po :)

One night, when I was clearing the messages in my 012 number. I found out this message from my sister one and a half year ago, when A-po was still alive. This Chinese New year will be the second Chinese New Year without A-po, time flies. I miss you A-po.




Good night! :)

想家了，又能怎么样？

有时候会累，会想回家。
还有一个月罢了就吃团圆饭啦，好期待 ：）

addressed to my beloved A-po ;' )

Yea, I know it had been quite a long time.
Too much things happened lately. Last Saturday A-po passed away. I missed the last chance to talk to her, to see her, to live as normal as usual like last time I used to with her. I missed the last chance to serve her, to comb her hair, to help her to shower, to cut her nails, to massage her. I am so sad, this is the first time, someone who are closed to me left me forever, to another world. That Saturday night, gorgor already called me that grandma was already in the hospital,asked me to prepare myself, mentally and physically. I was so frustrated, I am not by her side. Mama once told me that A-po asked when will I be back to KL. and she can't wait till the day, she already left us. leaving me crying alone in hostel. ;( Sunday morning, used mobile online, found out cousin FY fb status was writing about ....rest in peace... I got shocked! badly. why mama did not call me? quickly I called mama, without her saying anything, I know it was a truth, I heard people praying from the phone. my heart sunk, deep into the bottom of my heart. why thing happened to be this soon. I can't answer what my mama talk to me, I kept crying, at the same time, kept hiding my tears from my roommates's sight. the sad news striked my heart badly. bye-ed my mama, walked out the room and I couldn't control my tears anymore. All the memories I had with grandma was like a slides show, playing in my brain. The last time I saw her? Raya holidays. Heart ache. D; I wanted to cry out loud, I wish I was by her side at that time, I wish I was there to pray for here at that time. A-po, ;(
So I went back KL that day. alone.in the bus, I couldn't stop myself from crying. Whenever I remembered that A-po asked mama about when will I be back to home, I felt so consoled, but I felt like to cry, again, too. So I reached Pekeliling, neighbor came to bring me home. On the way back to home, I could already imagine that there was a coffin in my living room, with A-po's dead body in it. I know I will cry when I walk into the living room. And that was what happened. I cried, for whatever reason, I cried. I can no longer see her smiling at me, calling me 'muei-muei', talking teo-chew to me and never complain that how bad was my teo-chew slength. Then gor-gor passed me RM10 which my A-po asked him to give me, she knew she was about to come to the end of her life, she knew she might not be come back to home once she had been sent to the hospital. and thing happened to be what she predicted. ;(
26 October 2010. The day she was buried. I was not at home that morning, 'cause I was still having my final, but for this last paper. I took it at Selangor Matriculation College. I knew how badly everyone cried. Again, I was not there. A-po. ;( I wish I was there.
That's all from me. A-po, you will live forever in my heart. I am proud to say that I have(even now, ;) in my heart) you as my grandma, and I am with you for 18 years. I love you. and. I really miss you. ;)

grandma

Photo by cousin Juin.

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I looking forward for the coming of MAY and JUNE !! =D