addressed to my beloved A-po ;' )

Yea, I know it had been quite a long time.
Too much things happened lately. Last Saturday A-po passed away. I missed the last chance to talk to her, to see her, to live as normal as usual like last time I used to with her. I missed the last chance to serve her, to comb her hair, to help her to shower, to cut her nails, to massage her. I am so sad, this is the first time, someone who are closed to me left me forever, to another world. That Saturday night, gorgor already called me that grandma was already in the hospital,asked me to prepare myself, mentally and physically. I was so frustrated, I am not by her side. Mama once told me that A-po asked when will I be back to KL. and she can't wait till the day, she already left us. leaving me crying alone in hostel. ;( Sunday morning, used mobile online, found out cousin FY fb status was writing about ....rest in peace... I got shocked! badly. why mama did not call me? quickly I called mama, without her saying anything, I know it was a truth, I heard people praying from the phone. my heart sunk, deep into the bottom of my heart. why thing happened to be this soon. I can't answer what my mama talk to me, I kept crying, at the same time, kept hiding my tears from my roommates's sight. the sad news striked my heart badly. bye-ed my mama, walked out the room and I couldn't control my tears anymore. All the memories I had with grandma was like a slides show, playing in my brain. The last time I saw her? Raya holidays. Heart ache. D; I wanted to cry out loud, I wish I was by her side at that time, I wish I was there to pray for here at that time. A-po, ;(
So I went back KL that day. alone.in the bus, I couldn't stop myself from crying. Whenever I remembered that A-po asked mama about when will I be back to home, I felt so consoled, but I felt like to cry, again, too. So I reached Pekeliling, neighbor came to bring me home. On the way back to home, I could already imagine that there was a coffin in my living room, with A-po's dead body in it. I know I will cry when I walk into the living room. And that was what happened. I cried, for whatever reason, I cried. I can no longer see her smiling at me, calling me 'muei-muei', talking teo-chew to me and never complain that how bad was my teo-chew slength. Then gor-gor passed me RM10 which my A-po asked him to give me, she knew she was about to come to the end of her life, she knew she might not be come back to home once she had been sent to the hospital. and thing happened to be what she predicted. ;(
26 October 2010. The day she was buried. I was not at home that morning, 'cause I was still having my final, but for this last paper. I took it at Selangor Matriculation College. I knew how badly everyone cried. Again, I was not there. A-po. ;( I wish I was there.
That's all from me. A-po, you will live forever in my heart. I am proud to say that I have(even now, ;) in my heart) you as my grandma, and I am with you for 18 years. I love you. and. I really miss you. ;)

A very simple birthday celebration ;D

I forgotten this. =/

If you are to ask me what can I describe about her, I will answer you,

" the only human who bring along a electrical stand up fan to KMPh!!"

Haha;D

Happy birthday la Kaileen ;D

We only manage to buy this big size of cake from the bakery in KMPh. ><

I alway hunt for the sweetness among the bitterness. Do you?

Sometimes when people did something wrong to you, and he/ she just keep saying 'sorry', 'paiseh' to you, without any reason, then you should stop blaming him/her for being that. Because he/she really got his/ her reason, which he/she don't want to talk about it. =) respect him/her. 'cause he/she is not giving you any excuses =)

Suddenly miss the children at E.nopi. I still remember them, but do they?

Drawing is always a way I express myself ;D

Lately I had been so in love with Mariah Carey's Without you.

You alway smile but your sorrow shows, yes it shows.

Well, still got another 15 days. Then I can have myself go back to home. weeeweeee!
I still remember the first week, that's the orientation week, Madam Tor told us, (we Chinese) that we will love this place. And, yes, I do. However, whenever it approaches the day to go back home, you will feel extremely excited. You can't wait for the day to come, although before that you will have some sort of test like mid-sem test or final. And again, I definitely do! I always make list of things I wanted to do when I go back to home. This time, I feel like going back to Sungai Burong. I had a long time did not visit the lovely kampung. Besides that, this time, I must have myself practice at least a new songs. I will make it ;D

Okay, let's see whether I can make them true or not.

Em..Feel like to upload a picture. ;D

I can't stand hours of study, so I used an hour to yield this.

 I love it so much! ;D

Lang Lang- Lee Hom

Found this on fb. Nah, the 2 music-man who inspired me alot. (Lang Lang- Lee Hom) =)
*hua ren wan sui* ;D

HAHAHA I got 65 for my maths pre-test! thanks to..

65! Do you believe it? Thanks to the very good marker who marked my paper. =3=
Though I expected that I wont get 90 and above, I never expect I will get 80 and below! and I got 86 indeed! =.=

Well, thing happened like this, lecturer distributed our paper among each other and he wanted us to check for our friend. And, I was so LUCKY that a ''math professional'' took my paper. You know how she marked my paper?? Anything that I did not write accordingly to what my lecturer showed, she considered that I got it wrong. *speechless*

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Readers, you know, my Malacca's friends' secondary school friend involved in that horrible accident at Seremban. It was so saddening. He is currently in ICU waiting for surgery. and I got to know even after surgery, he is still paralysed. Anyway, pray for him so that he can recover soon though we don't know each other. In between, he is just like us. 18 years old.

Live life to the fullest. =D

Life is so fragile. Appreciate every single moment you spent with your family, your friends, your beloved one. You will never know which goodbye will be the last. Take care of yourself too, 'cause you don't know, how much you mean for them. You love them, and, they love you too.
To all the people around me. I love you.

Back to my topic.

Yes. I had done my MUET speaking test. Everything went so alright. There were some changes on my group member,due to lack of candidates, I had been put into group with 2 other Chinese in my class. I think we were the only group which did not have candidate from other races. Even the examiners got shocked too. Overall, we had tried our best and finally it is over. ;D For the coming PSPM, I will fight for it! 4 flat ;D I can do it!

UhmUhm, I am wondering? Is it my problem or their problem?? I found myself cannot co-operate well with them. I am not a typically racist. Just that, sometimes. their attitude really pissed me off. Why are them so irresponsible? Even when come to practice, they thought I had been so nervous because of them. *** la=.= I wanted to shout at them, I am not shy, I am just don't feel like talking to you, but what for I shouted at the human that pissed me off?. I remember there is a quote. " For people who understand you well, they don't need your explanation: For people who don't understand you, even you explained thousands times to them, they will never understand. "

So, chill up la;D I still got my family, my friends who really understand me well. *wink* ;D

Peace.

You will never know how thing will turn out to be until the day you do it. So, always expect for the good ones, think of the good ones,then, you will attract the good one.

I think this might be the second time in my life for getting below 90 for maths. uhm?. I will never say the questions were too tough or what, I will only blame myself for not preparing myself to the fullest. =/Well, just a pretest, I promise I will do it well for the coming PSPM. =)

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Yesterday went for MUET speaking practice with my group members. It wasn't that bad. it was good indeed. =D So. No worry. haha!

Thing does turn alright =)

When things really happened, you will find that it will not be that simple. It will be a complicated one, which you never face such problem. So therefore, you don't want people to know about it and you hide it into the bottom of your heart.

About my handset.

SIM IC is spoilt. Due to?? I don't know, perhaps I had logged in to fb too frequent until he can't stand it anymore. I never know it could be this serious that it cost about RM110 to repair it. Well, I had already told her that if she was to change any accesory inside my handset, please do inform me. But not until you had already changed it and there only you text me 'ms hoo, your hp is ok,you can take it from the shop. RM110.' It will only make me feel like throwing bad words on you. It is a new handset, you know, I can have my warranty works and perhaps it cost me 0 bucks. But now?what turn up?When I called to mama, I even feel like crying. I felt like I had been cheated.

Anyway, I had talked,well,softly instead of rudely to her, that I want her to compensate. The output is now I still have to pay her, but the price had been cut into RM55. Sorry to make my mama worry. Anyway, thing turns alright now. As I said,everything will be alright. =)

To all the people around me, I love you. ;D

I found myself had been quite active lately. haha.

Hey friendsss, did you notice something I made on my blog. I editted a post, I deleted something from the post, Because..because.... They found my blog. I am forced to do so. T.T How much courage I had put to myself in order to that cruel action. I telll u, I never edit my post, I never delete any post that I posted, but, I did it, for the first time I did it, and this will be last time too. Aih. -.-ll

Well, yesterday sent my handset to repair. A shop that start working at here not long time ago. ;( And, I am very PROUD to annouce that, I had not logged in my fb for 24 hours!!! taddadadada!! It broke my record, but hey, it wasn't means I resisted it, but it is because......my handset spoilt.zz.

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This week is so full of assignments and pre-test. I had been so busy that I found myself look so exhausted. It's okay.I will be totally free from all these, I mean chem pre-test, maths pre-test, assignments and MUET speaking test after 11 OCT 2010. next monday ;D Still, PSPM 1(final for sem 1) comes after that, is okay, I got 1 week-study week. I will manage my time well. chill;)

WhoaaAA T.T

WHOAAAAAAA!!
'' please insert correct SIM card''???
what it means to me?? Something wrong with my handset. I tried insert it with my 012 SIM card. But the same thing still happen to me. But when I insert my 016 SIM card into my 'backup' handset. It workss!seem like it wasn't the problem of my SIM card, It is the problem of G705. T.T

Dear G705,don'ttttt treat me like this please, though I know I had been very addicted to fb. And I had complaint so much about you. But how can you being so cruel laaaaaaaa? T.T

Never want to switch on my laptop this morning. But the 'tragedy' happened make it so. Supposing this morning is for chemistry. Hmp Hmp Hmp.T.T

still, cheep up =D

It had been quite a long time that I did not update my blog. I think it was not just me who did so. ;) Anyway, sorry readers. Well, it is Monday morning now. and later, 9.00p.m.,I will be sitting for my biology pre-test. It is like last time SPM trial,so it is that kind of tension I have now, as what you can lately on my Facebook. Hmm, talked about facebook, I really can't resist fb, everyday, I spent at least 15 minutes on fb. I shouldn't be so addicted. uhm, I have been this addicted to fb since the day I know about 0.facebook.com this kind of thing, thanks a Douglas Low. =S Anyway, still thanks to fb which connected me and my fb addict friends too. ;D
and, friends, I never never know that I will be silly. I will not talk much. Still, 一场美丽的误会，何乐而不为呢？
bye friends.
To all the persons around me, I love you =D