addressed to my beloved A-po ;' )

Yea, I know it had been quite a long time.
Too much things happened lately. Last Saturday A-po passed away. I missed the last chance to talk to her, to see her, to live as normal as usual like last time I used to with her. I missed the last chance to serve her, to comb her hair, to help her to shower, to cut her nails, to massage her. I am so sad, this is the first time, someone who are closed to me left me forever, to another world. That Saturday night, gorgor already called me that grandma was already in the hospital,asked me to prepare myself, mentally and physically. I was so frustrated, I am not by her side. Mama once told me that A-po asked when will I be back to KL. and she can't wait till the day, she already left us. leaving me crying alone in hostel. ;( Sunday morning, used mobile online, found out cousin FY fb status was writing about ....rest in peace... I got shocked! badly. why mama did not call me? quickly I called mama, without her saying anything, I know it was a truth, I heard people praying from the phone. my heart sunk, deep into the bottom of my heart. why thing happened to be this soon. I can't answer what my mama talk to me, I kept crying, at the same time, kept hiding my tears from my roommates's sight. the sad news striked my heart badly. bye-ed my mama, walked out the room and I couldn't control my tears anymore. All the memories I had with grandma was like a slides show, playing in my brain. The last time I saw her? Raya holidays. Heart ache. D; I wanted to cry out loud, I wish I was by her side at that time, I wish I was there to pray for here at that time. A-po, ;(
So I went back KL that day. alone.in the bus, I couldn't stop myself from crying. Whenever I remembered that A-po asked mama about when will I be back to home, I felt so consoled, but I felt like to cry, again, too. So I reached Pekeliling, neighbor came to bring me home. On the way back to home, I could already imagine that there was a coffin in my living room, with A-po's dead body in it. I know I will cry when I walk into the living room. And that was what happened. I cried, for whatever reason, I cried. I can no longer see her smiling at me, calling me 'muei-muei', talking teo-chew to me and never complain that how bad was my teo-chew slength. Then gor-gor passed me RM10 which my A-po asked him to give me, she knew she was about to come to the end of her life, she knew she might not be come back to home once she had been sent to the hospital. and thing happened to be what she predicted. ;(
26 October 2010. The day she was buried. I was not at home that morning, 'cause I was still having my final, but for this last paper. I took it at Selangor Matriculation College. I knew how badly everyone cried. Again, I was not there. A-po. ;( I wish I was there.
That's all from me. A-po, you will live forever in my heart. I am proud to say that I have(even now, ;) in my heart) you as my grandma, and I am with you for 18 years. I love you. and. I really miss you. ;)

A very simple birthday celebration ;D

I forgotten this. =/

If you are to ask me what can I describe about her, I will answer you,

" the only human who bring along a electrical stand up fan to KMPh!!"

Haha;D

Happy birthday la Kaileen ;D

We only manage to buy this big size of cake from the bakery in KMPh. ><

I alway hunt for the sweetness among the bitterness. Do you?

Sometimes when people did something wrong to you, and he/ she just keep saying 'sorry', 'paiseh' to you, without any reason, then you should stop blaming him/her for being that. Because he/she really got his/ her reason, which he/she don't want to talk about it. =) respect him/her. 'cause he/she is not giving you any excuses =)

Suddenly miss the children at E.nopi. I still remember them, but do they?

Drawing is always a way I express myself ;D

Lately I had been so in love with Mariah Carey's Without you.

You alway smile but your sorrow shows, yes it shows.

Well, still got another 15 days. Then I can have myself go back to home. weeeweeee!
I still remember the first week, that's the orientation week, Madam Tor told us, (we Chinese) that we will love this place. And, yes, I do. However, whenever it approaches the day to go back home, you will feel extremely excited. You can't wait for the day to come, although before that you will have some sort of test like mid-sem test or final. And again, I definitely do! I always make list of things I wanted to do when I go back to home. This time, I feel like going back to Sungai Burong. I had a long time did not visit the lovely kampung. Besides that, this time, I must have myself practice at least a new songs. I will make it ;D

Okay, let's see whether I can make them true or not.

Em..Feel like to upload a picture. ;D

I can't stand hours of study, so I used an hour to yield this.

 I love it so much! ;D

Lang Lang- Lee Hom

Found this on fb. Nah, the 2 music-man who inspired me alot. (Lang Lang- Lee Hom) =)
*hua ren wan sui* ;D

HAHAHA I got 65 for my maths pre-test! thanks to..

65! Do you believe it? Thanks to the very good marker who marked my paper. =3=
Though I expected that I wont get 90 and above, I never expect I will get 80 and below! and I got 86 indeed! =.=

Well, thing happened like this, lecturer distributed our paper among each other and he wanted us to check for our friend. And, I was so LUCKY that a ''math professional'' took my paper. You know how she marked my paper?? Anything that I did not write accordingly to what my lecturer showed, she considered that I got it wrong. *speechless*

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Readers, you know, my Malacca's friends' secondary school friend involved in that horrible accident at Seremban. It was so saddening. He is currently in ICU waiting for surgery. and I got to know even after surgery, he is still paralysed. Anyway, pray for him so that he can recover soon though we don't know each other. In between, he is just like us. 18 years old.