KMPh batch 2011/2012 :)

人太得空就是酱，
一直update blog. ><

photo from yee teng. I can see the shadow of us. =)

看到YT upload的那五张照片，
让我很后悔当初没有申请回去KMPh当faci.
看到新的一批学生进来，
就想到他们会经历回我曾经经历过的，
同一间dewan kuliah,
同一个lecturer,
不同的学生。

同一间cafeteria,
同一个老板，
不同的学生。

好好珍惜当下吧！ =))

特别的Post给特别的你们. =)

突然翻回以前的照片,
应该有整四五个月了.
答应你们会把照片photoshop得美美,
然后合成一副照片,
但是我后悔了,
我真的不会edit.
所以这是我的补偿,
还不错吧,呵呵.

谢谢你们曾经在我生命里出现过,

你们都很特别. =)

又回来? :)

teluk cempedak,kuantan. One of the best morning I have. :)

突然间，又想回来了。
是太无聊还是什么，
就是又想写了。
很久没有去读你们的blog.
才发现很多事情变了，
变得我不想去懂，
说我不关心也好，
只是知道得太多，
会很累,对吗?

一年过得很快,
真得很快.
转眼间,我又回来了.
坦白说,
我很想念在KMPh的生活,
因为在那里,烦恼不比在家多.
但是在那里的时候,
却又很想回家,
我是不是很矛盾?
总而言之.
珍惜当下才是最重要的.对吗? =)

...

Shifted my blog, into the hand-writing one.
原来我是自私的，真正有心事时，我并不想把它说出来。

Random

Is back again.
I had been so occupied. Busy until I neglected my facebook, my blog, my friends, I did not call you. I am really sorry for that. really.
It is about the end of 2010. So much things happened lately. This year isn't a plain year. It is a mixture. First time I leave my house, stay at outside, a place where I never expect I will be there. First time have someone so close to me to leave me, first time I cried so hard, first time I wish time could travel back so desperately. First time went to Taiwan. First time I skipped classes for a week. First time have 4 guys singing happy birthday song to me in front of the class. First time I dance, seriously, and gonna perform it. First time, so many first time. It is a mixture of feelings.

nothing much to say. wonder when will be my next post.

addressed to my beloved A-po ;' )

Yea, I know it had been quite a long time.
Too much things happened lately. Last Saturday A-po passed away. I missed the last chance to talk to her, to see her, to live as normal as usual like last time I used to with her. I missed the last chance to serve her, to comb her hair, to help her to shower, to cut her nails, to massage her. I am so sad, this is the first time, someone who are closed to me left me forever, to another world. That Saturday night, gorgor already called me that grandma was already in the hospital,asked me to prepare myself, mentally and physically. I was so frustrated, I am not by her side. Mama once told me that A-po asked when will I be back to KL. and she can't wait till the day, she already left us. leaving me crying alone in hostel. ;( Sunday morning, used mobile online, found out cousin FY fb status was writing about ....rest in peace... I got shocked! badly. why mama did not call me? quickly I called mama, without her saying anything, I know it was a truth, I heard people praying from the phone. my heart sunk, deep into the bottom of my heart. why thing happened to be this soon. I can't answer what my mama talk to me, I kept crying, at the same time, kept hiding my tears from my roommates's sight. the sad news striked my heart badly. bye-ed my mama, walked out the room and I couldn't control my tears anymore. All the memories I had with grandma was like a slides show, playing in my brain. The last time I saw her? Raya holidays. Heart ache. D; I wanted to cry out loud, I wish I was by her side at that time, I wish I was there to pray for here at that time. A-po, ;(
So I went back KL that day. alone.in the bus, I couldn't stop myself from crying. Whenever I remembered that A-po asked mama about when will I be back to home, I felt so consoled, but I felt like to cry, again, too. So I reached Pekeliling, neighbor came to bring me home. On the way back to home, I could already imagine that there was a coffin in my living room, with A-po's dead body in it. I know I will cry when I walk into the living room. And that was what happened. I cried, for whatever reason, I cried. I can no longer see her smiling at me, calling me 'muei-muei', talking teo-chew to me and never complain that how bad was my teo-chew slength. Then gor-gor passed me RM10 which my A-po asked him to give me, she knew she was about to come to the end of her life, she knew she might not be come back to home once she had been sent to the hospital. and thing happened to be what she predicted. ;(
26 October 2010. The day she was buried. I was not at home that morning, 'cause I was still having my final, but for this last paper. I took it at Selangor Matriculation College. I knew how badly everyone cried. Again, I was not there. A-po. ;( I wish I was there.
That's all from me. A-po, you will live forever in my heart. I am proud to say that I have(even now, ;) in my heart) you as my grandma, and I am with you for 18 years. I love you. and. I really miss you. ;)